y has everyone stopped blogging?? i'm back in depression..and yeah bk..the d mood is depression mood..i'm not in depression but i'm in dat mood..sounds funny huh? haiz. i dunoe. i defined it as depression mood : no mood to talk, no mood to smile, easily provoked..easily angered. n feel very sianz. wanna be alone n yet dun mind being wif frens..as long as they dun make me angry or want me to explain some stuff..someone pls get priscilla n da rest back in..i sianz liao. sch life isnt dat fun as the guys thought it is. no doubt it's possible dat it shld be more fun den ns..but think of due dates, stressful tutorials n labs..the sense of helpless-ness when u haf no frens taking the same tutorial slot or lab slot as u..or dunoe how to do an accessed lab etc. it's not dat fun as u all think it is. n when u are not feeling well, do u still force urself to go lectures when u noe u wont listen n will be feeling worse den ever or do u go back to hall n rest n end up slacking??? haiz..it had been quite a few times i have dis feeling..tightness in the chest area n not feeling well..went to lect n feeling damn uncomfortable..there are times i went back hall n rest n end up feeling damn guilty abt skipping lectures..

i'm damn stressed..wat if..wat if i cant score a CAP of at least 4.2 this sem?? n it's damn difficult to get dat CAP..i noe my limits..i dun think i can do it. i noe wat u all will say..half the battle is won when one thinks positively..but i cant bring myself to do dat..i'm damn stressed..i noe i gotta work hard..n wif IHG still going on n OMC rushing to get flyer deals..i needa work damn hard n be more hardworking..yet..YET..i'm still slacking in my room. i'm not disciplined enough. i reali REALLY DUNOE WAT TO DO..i seriously seriously need help..need some breathing space..need to be alone..n yet..i dun wanna be alone..i seriously dunoe wat to do now..trying to force myself to work damn hard..so stressful..HAIZ.