Hey Joel..

First of all, a very good day to all who's reading this... days being good or bad, it's really up to us. so hope you are having a good day.


I'm having a few days off-in-lieu and block leave cos i'm at the end of the 2 bars term..going on to 3 bars next week. however i will not do it at ocs, i will be at school of arty khatib camp to do the 23 weeks term.


joel, this post is for you. i truly understand how you feel now..i've been through that low period before. pls understand that i understand how you feel. lost, down, aimless, no where to turn to, don't know what will happen.. practically you fell from a high ground right thud onto the ground. now you look back up, it's all gone..you've either to stay down or attempt to go up again. unfortunately, slipped disc is no simple matter at all.. many injuries can come and heal in quick time.. not this. i'd think the best thing for you to do is to forget what bslc is all about.. rest and heal your injury till it recovers. perhaps, you should not even think about recoursing now, unless you get a grip of the state of your injury. there's no point in going forward when you are not even sure if you can go forward by your physical means. pal, think not too much. take this time to rest and recuperate. it's a good deal.



i'd like to share with you one entry of blog i had somewhere in august. august 2004 was just about the time i went out of course in sispec. i read thru it, and realise that my thinking and the way i presented my thoughts at that time was somewhat similar to your last entry. i'm not trying to say that my injury is same as yours..no no..mine was an injury instigated by some mental struggles. yours was pure accident and carelessness, if you will. but, the resulted feeling is similar. pls read the entry before you read on this post. (http://www.geocities.com/nbkai/upsanddownssispec.htm)



it's naturally for us human to feel depressed and down when things like that happen. but it will be out of natural for us human to overcome this down period and move on in life. my story may not be believed or accepted by many, being an ooc personnel for 5 months then recourse, then got crossover to ocs as coy best, now i'm plt best after term 2. i'm bragging, yes, but i want to say, don't feel too bad right now. it's ok to feel bad now..but work on your thoughts.. work on your plans.. after this down period it will be an up period.. by nature's sinosoidul. tough times don't last, remember, but be tough enough to accept all failures.. do not let go of yourself.. there are many out of course personnel who get themselves ooc to chao geng and relac one corner.. many of them.. don't get influenced by them.. stay yourself.. work hard in whatever job scope you face.. stay the joel you are.



my friend, i have been through much despair and distraughts while i was at sispec. trust that. nobody knows what those mean unless you go through it yourself. but i saw through them.. i took long, but i am where i am now. ocs. it's an affirmation of my effort. let ns nurture us into better people, through training and distraught periods.. remember.. don't ever tap out to circumstances.



that's it. what i have to say at this point is about that. things will turn out fine, eventually.. trust that.



bk